Dear U & U..

I'm sorry to make u stuck in my life. To feel hurt, betrayed and worry.
So many differences, so many difficulty of communicating..
I've tried.. No difference..
U say i never talk.. But did u ask? Did u even care to listen?

All u did was blame me for being ego, don't know how to take care of myself.
All u did is give me medicine and treat that.
I'm sorry for being weak.. I'm sorry to cause u so much trouble.
Have u ever ask why am i even like this? BIG NO!
U never find the root of the problems.

I know u did care for me, u love me.. but hello..
U always thought the way u love me is the love i wanted.

U said I'm ego. But when u know everything i did for u all...
All i get is scolding "why are u so stupid?"
WHY? Cause i don't know who to talk to.. U just never listen... U think all u want.. U listen to only what u want.

Did u know why i wanted to kill myself last time? Its not because i failed the exams.
Its cause I'm so scared that i will put u both on shame. But what i get is scolding.
U never ask.. even when i want to tell.. theres just never a good time..

I baptised cause it gave me strength.. If not because of the commanmends stated in the bible.
That day i have jumped down.. But did u ask? All u did was blame me being too rushy and childish in making decision.

I gave up the things i treasure the most for u all.. But what i get from u when i told u that is "You always blame people" HELLO u are the one tell me to talk, to tell u what im going thru.. but yet u blame me back.
When i keep quiet u blame me don't wanna talk. I really don't know how to react anymore.